Jensen pressed tighter against Jared, yawning loudly. He rested his arm over Jared’s and curled up a bit, making a sleepy, grunting noise.
“Want me to make us some breakfast? You don’t even have to get up from bed,” he whispered, mouthing his way down his neck.
Jensen made a small noise at that, kissing him back gently. He didn’t reply straight, it just… He chuckled a bit against his lips, muttering a hoarse “morning breath”.
“And you don’t really care,” he muttered, smiling softly as he nuzzled against his neck. He knew Jensen avoided the subject, but he was cool with it. Love was a huge step and, even if Jensen didn’t say it.. Well, Jared had a feeling that he felt the same way.
Jensen’s face scrunched up a bit as Jared kissed him and he cracked his other eye open just a bit, muttering something too incoherent to be understood. He smiled just a bit to him, his eyes trying to force themselves closed again. “‘s warm”, he managed to mutter out before burying his face against man’s neck.
“You’re beautiful,” he whispered back, smiling. He rubbed his side slowly before he tilted his head back enough for their lips to meet. He hummed softly and pulled him closer. “I love you.”
Jensen made another faint noise and rolled over on his arms, draping his arm around him and burying his face against his neck, letting out a deep sigh against his neck as he kept sleeping. Jared was warm, so warm that it made him sweat but Jensen didn’t seem to mind. He was perfectly fine there pressed against Jared’s side.
Jared rubbed his hand over his shoulder before it settled on his side, squeezing softly. He eyed the man’s face, seeing how peaceful he looked. He leaned closer and kissed his face, sighing happily.
Jensen’s chest rose slowly as he slept against the other man, being the small spoon. His hair was a mess from the last night and skin warm from being held by Jared the whole night. The soft touches made him let out a sleepy noise and shift a bit to press back against him. His hand slid to take a hold on Jared’s and he muttered something, just to doze off right as he got comfortable again.
Jared smiled a bit and continued to rub on Jensen’s hip and belly, hearing him make small noises signing that he liked it. His other hand slid into Jensen’s hair and ran through his hair while he sighed and watched him sleep.
Jared was happy to find Jensen still sleeping in his arms when he woke up. They had the day off, so he didn’t rush to get up or to wake Jensen. He just hoped that Jensen was still okay with what he had said the night before. It was Jared who’d been half drunk, not Jensen.
He sighed and pressed tighter against him, hand rubbing slowly over his abs. “I love you… Don’t leave me,” he whispered softly, closing his eyes as he pressed his face into his neck and kissed it.
Jensen breathed out softly and held his arms around him, breathing in his scent. “You smell good”, he whispered and tilted his head up a bit, watching him. “Sleep with me in here…?”
Jared smiled a bit and nodded. “Sure… Goodnight, baby,” he murmured before he closed his eyes and leaned in to nuzzle his nose into his neck.
Jensen trembled a bit, holding tight onto him, clutching on his back tightly. He bent his legs a bit and crossed his legs. He nodded a bit against his shoulder and breathed out shakily. “I still… I… I’m gonna move out. Just in case. Okay? You can stop by and wise versa.”
”.. Y’know, no one has ever suspected before, and we’ve been living together for years… But sure. If that’s what you’re comfortable with, then.. You move out.”
He kissed his cheek before he nuzzled his hair. “Just sleep, Jen.”
Jensen buried his face in man’s neck and clutched tight on his back, holding him against himself tightly. He whimpered a bit and pressed against him. “‘s so bad…” he whispered. “I… No one can know. No one”, he whispered and looked up at him.
Jared felt relief washing through him before he nodded. “I know.. I know baby,” he said softly before he slid off him and pulled him close to his chest. “Like I said; it’ll be our little secret.”
Jensen let out a soft sniff as the man spoke to him. He felt bad, bad as hell as Jared told him these things. This - or whatever Jared would tell Gen - would break her. What had been between them had been a puppy love. They had loved each others, been best friends, and now… Jensen had ruined it. “I’m sorry…” he whispered and closed his eyes as Jared kissed his face. He pressed his own hands on man’s face and kissed him deep, thumbs stroking over his cheekbones. ”It’s wrong, it’s… It’s bad, I…” he whimpered. “I love you. Jared… I’m sorry… I love you.”
Jared let out a soft whimper and sat back on his heels as he pulled Jensen up in a sitting position so he could hug him tightly.
“I love you too, Jensen,” he whispered in his ear. “I love you more than anyone… I know it’s wrong, bad and not fair at all, but it’s true.”
He sighed and nuzzled his neck as he held him close. “What do you want to do now? Still want to end what we’ve got here? Or do you want us to keep going the way we have?”